Sometimes this bothers me.
It bothers me what people might think.
But not very much.
Being an eremite is about being able to resist public opinion.
I hate the world. I always have done. Even as a child I knew that the world was corrupt, hypocritical and stupid. I didn't want anything to do with it.
Which is why I became a priest.
And also why I left the priesthood
The other day Ailz had a dream about a gaunt old woman with long, long hair. "Did she look like this?" I asked.
"Yes, just like that," she said. "How did you know?"
"Because it's one of my favourite works of art," I said.
And if she'd asked me why it was one of my favourite works of art I might have said, "Because that is what I look like on the inside."