You grow up in a repressive, low church, stupid-headed society. You're smart enough to hate it but you can't help internalizing the values and beliefs and you don't have whatever it takes to shake 'em off- even after you've moved to a society that would encourage you in the struggle. Decades later you're still acting on stupid-headed beliefs that are unworthy of your mind. You're capable of reading books that would disabuse you of them (you've got a degree, dammit!) but you choose not to. Why? What is it you like about your chains?